Realization: I Am Never Bored, And I Like It

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The past couple of weeks have been busy, as always. For not having a career, I’m pretty damn good at keeping myself busy. I actually often wonder how I am going to work a full time job at some point and be happy. Unless, of course, it's something I absolutely love to do. But...eight hours of the day devoted to one thing…yuck. I prefer some variation in my day. I like to write, work on music, bake, run, read, draw, cook. I have errands to run for my mom, food to buy for the house. Constant tidying up here and there. Running my own errands...

Working a “job” four to five hours a day is plenty for me. For right now at least. If only I could be a little more productive in my arts and sell some things to make some extra cash… I know I could and I think I will, eventually. It’s just about having a positive mindset and confidence and motivation. I want to refinish more furniture, create all sorts of novelties and quaint crafts from used materials, and figure out how the hell to get my children’s story published (I wrote a story about 10 years ago for an 8^th grade class project; about a year ago, I rewrote it and re-illustrated it; I think it would sell, but unfortunately, there are some copyright issues with the characters I used; and unfortunately, I can’t change the characters, they’re an integral part of the story).

I'm a productive person, but I'm also a procrastinator. Often times, my little voice has to slap my cheek and yell, What are you doing? Get going! Stop being lazy! You’re wasting your time!…Time, time. Yes, time. Where does it go? I don’t know, but I sure don’t like to waste it. So, I usually kick my lazy, procrastinating self before it really has a chance to settle in. I've realized that when dealing with great amounts of stress due to emotional or physical pain on a daily basis, you have to keep busy. It’s really the best thing. You’ve got to keep your mind active and occupied. Otherwise, you end up moping. Moping is what you get when you add lazy and pain together. So, you’ve got to really focus on carefully and positively manipulating your energy so that you can remain productive and happy.